More Attitude Positions

You mapped five fundamental spectrums yesterday. Today you complete the picture with five more. Same rules: where you are, not where you’d like to be. Honest numbers only.

These five go deeper. They touch on identity, trust, knowing, causation, and how clearly you see reality. Some people find these harder to rate because the questions themselves are unfamiliar. That’s fine. Sit with each one until you feel something land.

The Remaining Spectrums

Identity: 1-10 At 10, you have a strong, stable sense of who you are. You know what you stand for, what you want, what you’re about. At 1, you don’t really know who you are. Identity is fragile, shifting, dependent on who you’re with or what role you’re playing. Where do you live on this one?

Trust in life: 1-10 At 10, you trust that things work out. Not naively — not “everything happens for a reason” bumper-sticker trust. Real trust. A sense that life is navigable and fundamentally okay. At 1, you don’t trust life at all. The world is hostile, people are unreliable, and the best you can do is protect yourself. Where’s your actual position?

Knowing: 1-10 At 10, you feel like you know things. You trust your own perceptions, your own judgment. You can assess a situation and feel confident in what you see. At 1, you’re confused most of the time. You don’t trust what you see. You second-guess everything. Other people seem to know things but you’re never quite sure.

Creator: 1-10 At 10, you make things happen. You’re the creator in your life — you act and the world responds. At 1, things happen to you. You’re a victim. Life is something you react to, not something you create. This one overlaps with responsibility but it’s different. Responsibility is about ownership. Being creator is about agency.

Clarity: 1-10 At 10, you see things as they are. Your perception matches reality. You can tell the difference between what’s happening and what your mind is adding to it. At 1, you’re looking through heavy distortion. Your filters are so thick that what you see is mostly projection — fears, assumptions, biases coloring everything. You can’t tell what’s real from what you’re making up.

Looking at the Full Map

You now have 10 numbers. Lay them out and look at them.

Notice patterns. Are most of your numbers in the same range? A cluster of 3s and 4s tells you something different from a cluster of 7s and 8s. Are there outliers — one very high number among low ones, or one very low number among high ones?

Notice consistency. If your numbers are all similar, it suggests a consistent influence. Someone — probably a parent or a pervasive environment — installed a general orientation. If your numbers are scattered, different influences pulled you in different directions.

Notice the extremes. Very high or very low numbers usually indicate strong installation. A 2 on trust didn’t come from nowhere. Neither did a 9 on initiative. The more extreme the position, the stronger the source.

The Source Question

For each spectrum — especially the ones where your number is extreme or where you feel the most stuck — ask this question: who else held this position?

A mother who didn’t trust anyone will tend to produce children who rate low on trust. A father who never took responsibility will tend to produce children who either rate low on responsibility (they absorbed the pattern) or very high (they compensated by becoming hyper-responsible). Both are installed positions.

You might find that some positions match a parent exactly. You might find others that are the exact opposite — a rebellion against what you absorbed, which is still a reaction to it.

Write down what you see. Connect the numbers to sources where you can. For the ones where you can’t trace a source, just note that. They may become clearer as the unit continues.

Today’s Practice

Rate yourself on all five spectrums: Identity, Trust in Life, Knowing, Cause, Clarity.

Then lay out all 10 ratings together. Look at the full picture.

For each position, ask: Who else held this position? Where did I absorb this from? Was it modeled for me, explicitly taught, or did it come from a specific experience?

Write about the three positions where the source is clearest. Be specific. Not “I think this came from my family.” Instead: “My mother was a 2 on trust and I’m a 3. She never trusted anyone, and I absorbed that.”

This full map is something you’ll refer back to. It’s a snapshot of your current programming. Treat it as useful data, not a judgment.